That she made a decision the other day...

But is totally failing on the follow through of it. Heck, it hasn't even been started. Not sure what is stopping me, I know my friends are there to back me up, but I don't think its fully in my nature to do. Which is not a good thing. Yes, I know this is completely vaugue. I'm good at vaugue. Very good. lol

Otherwise the day has been 'eh'. I've been dwelling on my wallet. It just saddens me that someone has/had it and now everything is gone to me. I cleared off my home answering machine (totally give that number to people I don't want to actually talk to, and its listed) so that the good Samaritan that picked it up could look up my name (because its in the wallet) and call and tell me its all good. But no. No call. :( Ugh, why do people suck so much!

The past few days I have been eating crazy stuff. I have no idea why, but I think tonight when I had a salad with creamy Italian dressing all over it, that was the healthiest thing I have eaten. (Still not sure on the sushi I had the other day.) Seriously, I must be stressing. Maybe over the decision I made, but am waffling on. Then the wallet. Bah. I think I have eaten more sugar and random crap the past few days then I have in the past few months. But tomorrow I will be better. No, I don't deny myself things, but I really can't live off the crap I have been eating and my body is not happy with it. Its becoming all sluggish and fighting the workouts. This makes me unhappy. So, if you see me with crazy stuff in my hands..ok, don't slap my hands...or look at me sternly...but maybe be subtle as you rip it OUT of my hands. lol Drinking does not count. :p

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I started this at work today. I didn't forget to start writing it down when it came to me. Thing is, I kept getting interrupted and I so I think my focus changed a few times. There are elements to this one I like, so I might have to work on this one some more...and I don't think its finished either. Ah well. :)

A cloudy fog inhabits the
Turn in the road along the trees
The patchy which highlighting the
Bright greens and deep browns
That the forest possesses
The tops of the trees become white
As the sunlight that peeks
Through the fog hits them
Quiet settles in with the fog
An inherent trait that it brings along
Looking down the leaf strewn path
I don't know what is there

(yeah, no closure, but don't know where I want it to go yet. lol)

That tonight would have been a good night to not be single

Today, the first half, was OK. Nothing exciting. Nothing bad. Just a day. Then I went to go watch Monsters vs. Aliens with some friends and my son. Still good. It was a great movie and the 3D was cool. That's about where my day took a sharp turn into shit. :(

I normally carry my purse into theaters. Today, we were rushed, so I only took my wallet. Somehow between me walking out to the car and the gas station, my wallet disappeared. Oddly/thankfully, I had my cc in my pocket. My ONLY cc. We drove back to the theater to see if maybe I had left it on the top of the car and it had fallen off. No dice. It was not there. Went into the theater to make sure I didn't leave it somewhere inside or if someone turned one in. Again, no dice. So I am left to think that I dropped it/left it on the car (don't remember putting it there but....) and someone picked it up. God forbid they do the right thing and turn it in. Well I laugh at them because there is NOTHING of any use to them in there. Oh wait, there is TWO WHOLE DOLLARS. mf. Basically there are pictures, my OC card, insurance card, my son's RX, and Rx for me and my if my son goes missing here's what the cops need asap card. Oh, and lots of receipts...which scares me. Also my bank acct #. But I have already called my banker and he's gonna be on the lookout. :(

Oh, and I broke a nail, but that hardly seems relevant. lol

Caroline is thinking that after all that, it would have been nice to of had a bf to just hug. That's all. She doesn't ask for much. But, just a manly hug would have done wonders for her disposition she thinks. A comforting, possibly just lingering, hug. Alas, she will not get that though. *sigh* Feel sorry for her not, she'll be good tomorrow...maybe lol...but tonight, tonight it would have been nice to have someone care.

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Happy with the lot she is given
Accepting of that which is lost
Hopeful of what can still be
Thoughful of what will not
She's not surprised when things
Don't go the way she hoped
She's understanding when
The opposite is done
She doesn't expect to be first
On anyone's list
She gets why certain things are done
Yet she holds out for the time
When she won't be second
And she will come first
For someone else.