The memories don't stop

Caroline is thinking how on this date in 2018, she was supposed to go on a first date with M. But we got an ice storm so we both stayed home. I remember going outside to take pictures as we chatted all night. This might have been the anniversary of our first date. I wasn't expecting that memory. Caroline had gotten really good at preparing herself for dates that might knock the wind out. But she thought most of the grief was over, so she isn't really paying attention anymore. And then memories like this pop up and she's...just sad. It was a good memory.  It's a happy memory.  It followed a few weeks of having pneumonia.  With M texting and them getting to know each other better. Because things kept happening that delayed the first date. Maybe it was just the universe?  

Caroline didn't start dating M in 2018 though. He had stuff going on and he needed to sort it out before Caroline would be more than his friend. That rekindled in May of 2019, and that's a different story. 

Caroline doesn't want to bug her friends, because, well, it feels like she shouldn't dwell on these kind of memories anymore. But she does. And she has missed him every day since he passed away. 

The memories just keep coming. 

Miss you M. Love you. ❤️